Sometimes...I feel so empty...so empty of feelings...of thoughts...I see people and I don't...I hear conversations and I don't digest them....or perhaps, I don't want to...when I see no signs, when I get no vibes...I question my being...Am I real? or is it just a stage of my R.E.M?

Sometimes wish I could be more,do more, mean more,

It's like walking down the street and don't seeing anyone...no happensetance,no fortuity, I can't even have any judgements, while I see myself as soley an observer... it's like watching a movie with no criticisim...I wonder if that's normal?!

I have learned about simultaneity but wonder about it's functionality in real world...Could I exist somewhere else at the same time?would I be any different ,I donno,I donno,

feels like it's been a century since the last time I wrote in here, I 've even obliviously forgotten my habits without adapting new ones!!! I wonder what comes next? I need an island to get away...only for a lifetime